SWIM UNTIL YOU CANT SEE LAND
Getting on the plane to Connecticut in a few. My indecisive mind can’t decide if it wants to be back or not, but either way, I’m not looking forward to it.
Ugh, here comes my unhappiness again.
(x) stayed single for the whole year
(x) made out in/on a car
( ) kissed in the snow
(x) celebrated Halloween
() kissed in the rain
() had your heart broken
(/) broke someone else’s heart
( ) had a stalker
() went over the minutes on your cell phone
() had a good relationship with someone
() someone questioned your sexual orientation
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) had an abortion
(x) have a relationship with someone you’ll never forget
() done something you’ve regretted
( ) lost faith in love
( ) kissed under a mistletoe
(x) painted a picture
(x) wrote a poem
(x) ran a mile
(x ) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
(x) posted a blog
(x) listened to music you couldn’t stand
(x) went to a sleepover
() went camping
() threw a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried
( ) laughed till you peed in your pants
( ) visited a foreign country
(x) cut in a line of waiting people
(x) told someone you were busy when you weren’t
(x) partied to celebrate the new year
(x) cooked a disastrous meal
(x) lost something/someone important to you
In 2009 I…
(x) broke a promise
(x) went behind your parents back
(/) cried over a broken heart
(x) disappointed someone close
(x) hid a secret
(x) pretended to be happy
(x) slept under the stars
(x) kept your new years resolution
(x) forgot your new years resolution
(x) met someone who changed your life
( ) met one of your idols
(x) changed your outlook on life
(x) sat home all day doing nothing
(x) pretended to be sick
( ) left the country
() almost died
(x) given up something important to you
(x) lost something expensive
(x) learned something new about yourself
(xxxx) tried something you normally wouldn’t try and liked it
(x) made a change in your life
(x) found out who your true friends were
(x) met great people
(x) stayed up til sunrise
(x) Cried over the silliest thing
(x) was never home on weekends
() got into a car accident
(x) had friends who were drifting away from you
() had someone close to you die
(x) had a high cell phone bill
(x) spent most of your money on food
(/) had a fist fight
() went to the beach with your best friend
(x) saw a celebrity
(x) gotten sick
( ) liked more than 5 people at the same time
(x) became closer with a lot of people
1. What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before?
Oh wow, quite a lot. I tried a lot of things I said I’d never do, did what I wanted to do, lived with no regrets and many other things.
2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I kept all of them except for learning to play guitar. I’ll keep goaling to keep my room clean, keep my grades up and study hard to midterms and finals. Fuck, and SATs. And I’ll resolute to get a job, save up for Colorado, GET TO COLORADO, work on getting a license and all that crap that comes with being sixteen.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
4. Did anyone close to you die?
5. What countries did you visit?
I haven’t left the country. I visited states though that I’ll list: Florida, Maryland, New Hampshire, Colorado. I think that’s it.
6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
I can’t answer this.
7.What dates from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
The winter months, March/April, May, July, perhaps now. The reasons either have to do with chapters in my life and people who were significant at the time.
8.What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I let a lot of things go, got to know myself and I redid my room. I’m sure there’s deeper things than that but whatever.
9. What was your biggest failure?
I suppose not keeping close people I should have and just issues around that.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Not really, no.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
My tapestry, maybe, some of my clothes and shoes. I’m not that materialistic.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
I’d say my own. The fact that me and Emily rekindled and things are still the same I’m really happy with her about that. My mom was wonderful, mostly after the summer. Cara as always, the Strimpels for everything everything everything, my grandparents as usual, Charles and Matt for the time, Davos for not giving up even though I was being a royal bitch, and for forgiving me.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Mm, not going to touch this one. I learned from it if anything, so it’s okay.
16. What song will always remind you of 2009?
Anything by fun. and the Across the Universe soundtrack.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? i had major highs and major lows, but i think overall happier.
b) thinner or fatter? phatter
c) richer or poorer? i definitely had more money last year
18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Eh I’m pleased with what I’ve done for the most part but if anything, exercising lulz. I like being in shape so much but I lack motivation to git up n go
19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
no regretz no regretz
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
I spent it in Florida with my mom’s side of the family. Twas nice.
22. How many one-night stands?
Two by my terms.
23. What was your favorite TV program?
Lolz wife swap
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
Several relationships with people have changed, but I wouldn’t go so far as to say we hate eachother. Well, they might.
25. What was the best book you read?
I read the Harry Potter series. The last book was my favorite. The Glass Castle was really good too.
26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Ratatat and fun. and Manchester Orchestra.
27. What did you want and get?
Relations with people.
28. What did you want and not get?
Relations with people.
29. What was your favorite film of this year?
I dont know.
30. What did you do on your birthday?
New Haven hookah with Emily and others.
31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Finishing unfinished business, and/or getting my answers.
32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
I really can’t label myself but I basically parted with scenedom and my version of hipness, whatever that was to me, and in the middle of the summer I switched to what I am now. I’ll leave you to judge.
33. What kept you sane?
Weed and friends.
34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Nate Ruess probably.
35. What political issue stirred you the most?
The new presidency only because it stirred my mom the most and I had to deal with it.
36. Who did you miss?
The krew, what it once was. And mah boys. And obviously Sara.
37. Who was the best new person you met?
I could never narrow that down to one person.
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009?
If you don’t like something the way it is, make a change. If you can’t, put it out of your mind and life. Be cultured and don’t judge people too quickly. View their flaws as if they were your friend.
39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
I’m not going back. I’m not going back back back back.
Because I’m listening to that song right now and I think it fits.