it’s interesting how it’s not uncommon to be broken down so much in faith and trust in a certain kind of person that eventually, you let the notion and idea of it go completely. it’s most likely unobtainable, so why bother? or is it simply fear that is holding you back?

and to have been so far down a hole that the mere idea of happiness and comfort that can be attributed to another human that can not be relied on…  is repulsive. the immediate reaction is to run, to attack, to flee, to ambush, to retreat. 

Trust is weird,” my mother said. “People give it too easily, most of the time. Because somebody is attractive, they expect him to be good or honest. Or like pushy salesmen—somebody who carefully makes you feel like you’re emotionally obligated to trust them. Like you’re the rude one if you don’t. Trust is really something that needs to be earned. Hard earned. If somebody ever says, ‘Don’t you trust me?’ Just say, ‘No, as a matter of fact.’
— The Gardener by Kristen D. Randle (via lostinthesounds)

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Grateful Dead & Merry Pranksters1966Liner Notes: “SCOOPS DU JOUR: Shortly before he disappeared into limbo, or even Mexico Novelist Ken Kesey and his “Trips” buddies recorded an album at Sound City Recorders on Sixth St. What makes this an item possibly, is that Ken et al were high on LSD at the time, and kept getting higher as the recording progressed. The album is titled “The Acid Test”—Kesey’s idea—and will be priced at $5.95. In fact, the only thing ordinary about this record is that the whole’s in the middle…”-Herb Caen (San Francisco Chronicle) 

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Grateful Dead & Merry Pranksters
1966
Liner Notes:
“SCOOPS DU JOUR: Shortly before he disappeared into limbo, or even Mexico Novelist Ken Kesey and his “Trips” buddies recorded an album at Sound City Recorders on Sixth St. What makes this an item possibly, is that Ken et al were high on LSD at the time, and kept getting higher as the recording progressed. The album is titled “The Acid Test”—Kesey’s idea—and will be priced at $5.95. In fact, the only thing ordinary about this record is that the whole’s in the middle…”
-Herb Caen (San Francisco Chronicle) 

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Brave, unconcerned, mocking, violent — thus wisdom wants us: she is a woman and always loves only a warrior. There is little of man here: therefore their women strive to be mannish. For only he who is man enough will release the woman in woman.
Friedrich Nietzsche (via heartbloodspirit)